Things I wish I could say out loud

Hopefully this will be theraputic, because heaven KNOWS I need it right about now.

1) I'm sad that we don't talk anymore. I hate that I never get to see you, and I know that it's completely my fault. I'm sorry about what happened, it never should have, and I feel horrible. If I were you, I'd be mad at me too. I miss you. Also, I'm sad I don't know anything about your life. I have to find out things via facebook? WOW. I'm a terrible friend, and for that I'm sorry.

2) I always miss you, and I'm sad things didn't work out the way we wanted them to. Hopefully it'll be better this way. I hope you end up happy!

3) JUST LOVE ME ALREADY! I'm sick of waiting around for you to realize that we're perfect for each other.

4) I can't apologize for what happened, because I don't feel bad about it. And I feel like you're blowing things out of proportion. I've always thought that you can't function unless you have some type of drama going on ALL THE TIME. I don't want to be dragged into it, as much as I love you. I am sorry that you're upset with me, and I'm sorry I wasn't as up front about things as I should have been, but you're not willing to hear me say any of this, so...

5) I've never been able to tell if we're friends or not. I feel better about myself when I'm not around you. I'm starting to realize that it's not worth it. Don't be surprised if you don't hear from me for a while.

6) Yes, we dated. Yes, it didn't work out. No, I'm not in love with you anymore. GET OVER IT. Can't we just be friends? I hate that I can't talk to you anymore.

7) Come home already. I miss our conversations where we both used to pour our souls out. And now you're so dang far away, and I can't function.

8) I thank God every night for you. You're the best thing I've got going in my life right now, and I'm SO grateful for every second I have with you!

9) MAKE A DECISION. I'm not just going to keep coming around when you don't want to commit to anything. Can't we just talk this through?! It doesn't have to be as messy and complicated as you think it does.

Old Man Winter

No, Casey, I'm not talking about you.
This is EVEN COOLER than you are. =]


Just looking outside and you can tell Old Man Winter paid Cedar City a visit, and I've heard he came to Salt Lake, too! But in Lake Stevens, Washington, it looks like he made a personal appearance! This icicle was found hanging from Jeremy Olden's home.Here's a closer view:

Work Quotes, Winter 2008

"Why DON'T we need cheetos?!" - Katy
"Yes huh! One orange M&M, duh!" - Kami
"Death to the Pen Stealer!!!" - Julie
"Who DOESN'T like to be drugged up?" - Katy
"MOM! Katy's being mean to me!" - Kami to Julie, who is CLEARLY not her mom.
"Cindy! Not THAT kind of piracy..." - Katy
"You're confused." - Sir Ian
"Heck yeah! I LOVE filing!" - Kami
"Who's that pretentious hag? ... Oh, it's Stephenie Meyer." - Katy
"Wait....uh....huh? ...Wha..... hmmmmmmmmwhosaidyoucouldprintinhere?" - Kami
"Byparumph?" - Kami
"Ahhh! Gimme back my Power Ranger!" - Random Auto Shop Kid
"Um.... is that otter dead?" - Mitch
"This creepy thing on my hand just had a baby..." - Cindy
"Lend me your comb!" - Kami and Cindy, simultaneously.

On a bored day at work...

SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 85 of these films, you have no life. There are 239 films on this list.

( ) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
(x) Boondock Saints
(x) Fight Club
( ) Starsky and Hutch
( ) Neverending Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane!

Total: 5

(x) The Princess Bride
(x) AnchorMan
(x) Napoleon Dynamite
(x) Labyrinth
( ) Saw
(x) Saw II
(x) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
(x) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement

Total so far: 15

( ) Scream
( ) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
( ) Scary Movie
( ) Scary Movie 2
( )Scary Movie 3
( ) Scary Movie 4
( ) American Pie
( ) American Pie 2
( ) American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp

Total so far: 15

(x) Harry Potter 1
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
( ) Resident Evil 1
( ) Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
(x) The Village
(x) Lilo & Stitch

Total so far: 22

(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
(x) Signs
(x) The Grinch
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
( ) White Chicks
( ) Butterfly Effect
(x) 13 Going on 30
( ) I, Robot
(x) Robots

Total so far: 28

( ) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
( ) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( ) Along Came Polly
( ) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
( ) Meet The Parents
( ) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
( ) Joe Dirt
(x) KING KONG

Total so far: 30

( ) A Cinderella Story
(x) The Terminal
(x) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
(x) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumber & Dumberer
( ) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
( ) Final Destination 3
( ) Halloween
( ) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
(x) Flubber

Total so far: 35

( ) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(x) Practical Magic
( ) Chicago
( ) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
( ) Hellboy
(x) Secret Window
( ) I Am Sam
( ) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Whole Ten Yards

Total so far: 37

( ) The Day After Tomorrow
( ) Child's Play
( ) Seed of Chucky
( ) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
(x) Just Married
( ) Gothika
( ) Nightmare on Elm Street
(x) Sixteen Candles
(x) Remember the Titans
( ) Coach Carter
( ) The Grudge
( ) The Grudge 2
(x) The Mask
( ) Son Of The Mask

Total so far: 42

( ) Bad Boys
( ) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
( ) Lucky Number Sleven
(x) Ocean's Eleven
(x) Ocean's Twelve
(x) Bourne Identity
(x) Bourne Supremecy
( ) Lone Star
( ) Bedazzled
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
( ) The Fog
(x) Ice Age
(x) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
( ) Curious George

Total so far: 48

(x) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
( ) Christine
(x) ET
(x) Children of the Corn
( ) My Bosses Daughter
(x) Maid in Manhattan
(x) War of the Worlds
(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2

Total so far: 55

( ) Best Bet
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
(x) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
(x) Ever After
(x) Wizard of Oz
(x) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
( ) The Terminator
( ) The Terminator 2
( ) The Terminator 3

Total so far: 61

( ) X-Men
(x) X-2
( ) X-3
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
( ) Sky High
( ) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
(x) Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Little Mermaid
(x) Freaky Friday
(x) Reign of Fire
( ) The Skulls
(x) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
( ) The Hot Chick
(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2

Total so far: 71

( ) Swimfan
(x) Miracle on 34th street
( ) Old School
(x) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
( ) Krippendorf's Tribe
(x) A Walk to Remember
( ) Ice Castles
( ) Boogeyman
( ) The 40-year-old Virgin

Total so far: 74

(x) Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
(x) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
(x) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
(x) Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade

Total so far: 80

( ) Basketball
( ) Hostel
(x) Waiting for Guffman
( ) House of 1000 Corpses
( ) Devils Rejects
(x) Elf
( ) Highlander
(x) Mothman Prophecies
( ) American History X
( ) Three

Total so Far: 83

( ) The Jacket
( ) Kung Fu Hustle
( ) Shaolin Soccer
( ) Night Watch
(x) Monsters Inc.
(x) Titanic
(x) Monty Python and the Holy Grail
(x) Shaun Of the Dead
( ) Willard

Total so far: 87

( ) High Tension
( ) Club Dread
(x) Hulk
( ) Dawn Of the Dead
(x) Hook
(x) Chronicles Of Narnia The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
( ) 28 days later
( ) Orgazmo
( ) Phantasm
(x) Waterworld

Total so far: 91

( ) Kill Bill vol 1
( ) Kill Bill vol 2
( ) Mortal Kombat
( ) Wolf Creek
( ) Kingdom of Heaven
( ) the Hills Have Eyes
( ) I Spit on Your Grave aka the Day of the Woman
( ) The Last House on the Left
( ) Re-Animator
( ) Army of Darkness

Total so far: 91

(x) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
(x) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
(x) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
(x) Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
(x) Ewoks: Caravan Of Courage
(x) Ewoks: The Battle For Endor

Total so far: 99

(x) The Matrix
(x) The Matrix Reloaded
(x) The Matrix Revolutions
(x) Animatrix
( ) Evil Dead
( ) Evil Dead 2
( ) Team America: World Police
( ) Red Dragon
( ) Silence of the Lambs
( ) Hannibal

Grand total: 103

Holiday Greetings

To All My Democrat Friends:


Please accept with no obligation, implied or implicit, my
best wishes for an environmentally conscious, socially
responsible, low-stress, non-addictive, gender-neutral
celebration of the winter solstice holiday, practiced within
the most enjoyable traditions of the religious persuasion of
your choice, or secular practices of your choice, with
respect for the religious/secular persuasion and/or
traditions of others, or their choice not to practice
religious or secular traditions at all. I also wish you a
fiscally successful, personally fulfilling and medically
uncomplicated recognition of the onset of the generally
accepted calendar year 2009, but not without due respect for
the calendars of choice of other cultures whose
contributions to society have helped make America great. Not
to imply that America
is necessarily greater than any other
country nor the only America
in the Western Hemisphere .
Also, this wish is made without regard to the race, creed,
color, age, physical ability, religious faith or sexual
preference of the wishee.



To My Republican Friends:

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Life is like a slinky....

Sometimes it's long and sproingy,
Sometimes it's short and sproingy,
And sometimes it gets all stepped on and bent out of shape, and you can never right it no matter how hard you try, and for the rest of your life you're stuck with this pathetic, broken slinky.
And what good is that?

Rock-paper-scizzors?

I understand how scizzors can beat paper, and rock can beat scizzors, but there's no way that paper can beat rock. Is paper supposed to magically wrap around rock and leave it immoblie? If so, why can't paper do this to scizzors? Screw scizzors, why can't paper do this to people? Why aren't sheets of college ruled notebook paper constantly suffocating students as they take notes in class? I'll tell you why, because it's preposterous! Paper can't beat up anybody! A rock could mangle a sheet of paper in seconds. When I play rock-paper-scizzors, I always choose rock. Then, when somebody claims to have beaten me with their paper, I can punch them in the face with my already clenched fist, and say "Oh, I'm sorry. I thought paper would protect you. ...Idiot."

Song of the Moment #3

"I am a Rock" by Simon and Garfunkel

A winters day in a deep and dark december.
I am alone.
Gazing from my window to the streets below on a freshly fallen, silent shroud of snow.
I am a rock, I am an island.
I've built walls, a fortress deep and mighty that none may penetrate.
I have no need of friendship; friendship causes pain.
It's laughter and it's loving I disdain. I am a rock, I am an island.
Don't talk of love.
I've heard the words before.
It's sleeping in my memory.
I won't disturb the slumber of feelings that have died.
If I never loved I never would have cried.
I am a rock, I am an island.
I have my books and my poetry to protect me.
I am shielded in my armor.
Hiding in my room, safe within my womb.
I touch no one and no one touches me.
I am a rock, I am an island.
And a rock feels no pain. And an island never cries.

Bleh.

I don't feel like myself recently.
I'm not sure I know how to explain it.
I don't feel like doing anything, I'm not as cheerful and upbeat as I used to be.
I just feel like sleeping all the time, and not ever getting out of bed.
I may have seasonal depression.
Or I may have mono.
Or, I may be in a spiritual rut, which I think is the most likely of all.
I don't know why I've been having such a hard time recently doing all the little things that I know I should be.
It isn't a hard thing to say my prayers or read my scriptures, so why aren't I doing it more often?
I feel so... ungrateful?
I'm trying to be better recently, but I don't have the desire I once did.
I don't know.
Bleh.

The perfect boyfriend...

...is a little mixture of Seth Cohen, Ryan Atwood, Peter Petrelli, Jim Halpert, Edward Cullen, Gene Kelley, Will Smith, Frank Sinatra, Bruce Wayne, Prince Charmont and Mr. Darcy.

Edit on 10/14/2008 : Today, I'd like to include Gerard Butler.

The only thing better than an iPhone

Would be these adorable iPhone cupcakes!

That's no knife

THIS is a knife.

www.thinkgeek.com

Funniest thing I've seen on campus to date:

a kid smoking whilst wearing this shirt.

Funniest thing EVER.

6 Unspectacular Quirks

I have been tagged to list 6 things about myself that some of you may or may not know! This should be... interesting.

1 - I don't like it when my food touches other kinds of food on my plate. For example, when my jello salad touches the ranch from my house salad. TOTALLY ruins my appetite. Foods that are meant to mix, however, are fine (ie: mashed potatoes and gravy).

2 - I can't go to sleep at night if there are socks on my feet. It makes me claustrophobic. I also get claustrophobic if the blankets are tucked under the mattress. As a result, my bed is disastrous to make every morning.

3 - I will go to sparknotes.com, print off the character summaries, themes and symbols, etc from the website, and glue them into the binding of my book, to enhance my reading experience. Not all the time, but fairly often.

4 - I love ANYTHING to do with black licorice flavouring. From licorice, to gum, to altoids, to gumdrops and jellybeans, to candles. That is the most heavenly smell and taste in the entire world.

5 - If I ever had to choose a painful disease from which to die, I would choose tuberculosis. It's such a romantic disease. Not romantic in an "I love you" way, but "characterized by strangeness or variety; suggestive of adventure; suited to romance; wild; picturesque." (thank you, dictionary.com) It's so adventurous, and so many literary and film heroines have suffered from it. (ie, Satine from Moulin Rouge!) All of Edgar Allen Poe's family members died of "The Red Death" as it was called, which made him so fascinated with morbidity. It's just adventuresome and charming.

6 - I never realized I have this problem, until I heard Dani Kent talking about it. When people are discussing the human body, most notably surgeries or injuries, I can FEEL the bones in my body, and it grosses me out. this was never a problem until I heard her mention it. Even now, as I type this, I can feel the bones in my wrists and elbows against the desktop, and it makes my skin crawl.


Well, that's it for MY traits, but the terms and conditions of this game require me to tag six other people. The one stipulation, you have to link me in your blog, if you haven't already. Their rules, not mine. Truthfully, I don't care if you link me or not. I'm not entirely sure I want all of cyberspace reading my innermost thoughts....

But I digress. I nominate Casey Winters, Kate Daly, Cailie Ercanbrack, Crystalyn and/or Matt Jaynes - whichever notices first, Hye Soo Dixon, and Reilly Turner. Get a-crackin' folks.

No big deal...

This friggin' huge bug was only RIGHT in front of my doorway just barely.

It's about two inches long, no joke.

This thing is Satan's very own insect.
Creepy.

I'll post the pictures I took of it later.

Two years later

Today is Edwin's homecoming.
I can't believe that two years have come and gone.
I saw him Friday night, and it wasn't awkward at all, so that's good.
But he's changed a lot, and I've changed a lot.
I don't expect anything to come of this, and
frankly I don't necessarily WANT anything to come of this.
Except for being friends again. That'll be nice.

Well, well, well... look who came crawling back

Yup, it's me. FINALLY blogging again.

I'm currently going to school at SUU, and just livin' the dream.

Hopefully I'll be better at posting on this dang thing.

Meantime, here's two photos I took... for you all to look at.